2010年5月15日星期六

戒不掉,您的癮……



自Curly離開後,友人們,不斷為我,送上祝福。但,夜闌人靜時,我,總細聽一些催淚歌,以安撫受傷心靈。Curly,是您以天上的星星,每晚,為姐姐送上,此兩首歌止痛嗎?

有人說,時間可治療傷痛。哪究竟,要過多久,才可治癒,不再感痛?為何我依舊,回家,喚您的名字,我歸來?為何依舊,仍看見您,為我搖頭擺尾?為何懷念,您等我歸來!為何懷念,再次撫摸,您小身驅!恨,我總定時定侯,從密封袋中,取您的物件,嗅您的味,以止對您的思念。怕,有一天,當我打開密封袋,再嗅不到您!

想您時,我依舊,失聲痛哭;依舊奢望,您沒離開。我,也許,永難忘,與您曾共同經歷。又也許,如黃偉文在<活著多好>中,道:「……就算真可以當作,牠還在花園散步,當牠仍在浴室洗澡,可是想給對方擁抱,只得抱著一團空氣;遇著什麼煩惱,只有對著一堵牆傾吐;身邊一切事物永久失去色彩……」而您,卻告訴我:
「……到處還是 香水氣味
到處還是 塗鴉筆記
就像我未拋低你
遊玩時  開心一點
不必掛念我
來好好給我活著 就似最初
仍然在呼吸都應該 要慶賀
如果想哭 可試試對嘉賓滿座
說個笑話‧‧‧紀念我!」

感謝友人,安慰我說,您已達彩虹橋。彩虹橋,指非是,東京台場那一條。卻,特別為悼亡,曾常伴左右的寵物而成。冀,牠們可經彩虹橋,達更美的地方,沒有痛,沒有苦。雖,是天真的期盼,但我望,您曾到此。

樂觀心態,說悲愁的事,以迫不得已的角度,看生離死別。也許,更感淒然悵惘。生命,誠可貴。臉上雖笑,卻劃一道道,想您的淚痕…… My darling Curly,您在彩虹橋,好嗎?我明白了,別再哭,抬起頭來,堅強活好每一天!

<藤田惠美 Emi Fujita - Rainbow Bridge >


Do you know that I must be going
To a place full of happy memories ?
In an emerald meadow by a Rainbow Bridge
You can hear heaven’s anthem on the breeze

Well, a heavenly light falls around me
In a twinkling my youth has been restored
Over green hills and valleys once again I roam free
Like the days when on eagle’s wing we soared

I’m surrounded by many companions
And together we pass our pleasant days
Every need is provided, there is nothing I lack
Save for you to whose memory my heart strays

When you’re heaven-bound there’s a place you pass through
Called the Rainbow Bridge, I’ll be waiting there for you
Yes, I’ll be waiting there for you with a heart that’s tried and true
Till the day I can feel , once again, your arms around me

Fare thee well now for I must be going
Dry your tears, no you must not cry for me
Till the day that we meet again at long journey’s end
At the Rainbow Bridge, you know that’s where I’ll be

At the Rainbow Bridge this heart waits faithfully

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